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Living my dream!


I’m living my dream ✨



I sniff her hair, let my brain process it…
*SHE’S HERE*
Hearing her breathe takes me back to rubbing my pregnant bump.
How hard I prayed to get here.
How much my heart hoped and longed for her.

The hours and days and months and years I prayed, hoped, longed, bargained, pleaded...
The silent nights, the quiet moments, the empty arms, the empty heart, the missing piece in my life.

Turned into -

The short days and the long nights…
The hard moments and joyous moments…
The ins and outs of this early motherhood phase…
The tears of frustration and the tears of joy…


I’m taking it all in.
I’m enjoying every bit of it. No matter how hard I find it.
I waited so long for these moments. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I KNOW it’s worth it. ✨

I love being a mama. I love being her mama.
I thank God every single day I get to parent here on earth too 🤍✨

She's the sunshine my life needed.
Lord knows I needed her. ✨

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